So some actual pictures....

Soooo I gave up with the app. Which is really rather irritating as it would've been awesome to blog where ever I fancied (and the fact that I had to pay for the damn thing). But the photos looked shit so it's back to the ol'lappytoppy.

So here's what I've done in the last couple of days. Nothing amazing but, like I said before, I haven't drawn anything in nearly 18 months. Scary shizzle.

So here goes....

As you can see, I've just been doodling my jewellery. But it's something.

And apologies for the CRAP photos...iPhone does not like black and white drawings.

Possibilities...

Now, in my local area there are various arts n crafts societies/fairs/events...I'm thinking that what I'm doing at the moment is rather commercial and might be quite sellable....soooo I think I'm gonna get some little canvases n do some studies on them!

Hmmmmmmm

Oohhh...

How depressing...those photos look crap. All distorted an everything.

That's what trying to be smart and do it on the iPhone does....

Heyho, they are much better in real life. In fact, they are rather good in general.

The First of Many....

So this is what I've been up to...just a start but I'm quite pleased with them as I haven't really drawn ANYTHING in nearly 18 months...

Brainwave!

Having visited an artyfarty friend over the weekend, I've suddenly come over all artyfarty again! I have to say, I wasn't sure it would ever happen again.

But here I am! I've been keeping a journal for quite a while (partly inspired by a fashion blogger I know) and on Saturday I picked up a pen n started scribbling. Photos to come....

Lastly, have finally linked all three of my websites up, so people can have a fully rounded view of myself. Scary,huh?

Oh, and I now have a blog app on my shiney (ok,not so shiney) iPhone, so expect to see lots of random little blogs popping up. Much more interesting....

Watch this space!

What now?

What now indeed.

I come come to the realisation that I am not happy. Now, I know that seems like the kind of thing that should be blatantly obvious, but funnily enough, its taken me a good few weeks to realise that its not just a mood swing...that I genuinely am not a happy chappy. I can still be when I need to be - at work and so on, but under it all I just want to cry. And sleep.

I have no idea what I want to do with my life! I haven't been enjoying either of my jobs recently....the Parrot seems to have lost some of its atmosphere (other staff have noticed this too), and quite frankly I haven't had a pleasant shift there in weeks. Saying that, last night I was left in charge of the wedding, and it was an excellent night. I was told that it had been noticed that I enjoy doing the weddings, so I'm considering asking Lucinda for a more active role in the functions. For a few years I've considered the idea of events management - specifically weddings and the like. So perhaps that's where I should focus.

Here at the garden, life is rather dull. I fully appreciate everything Hannah has done for me - I truly feel like the past year has been an extension of my degree. But, as I said in my previous post, it really isn't where my heart lies. And I get so bloody bored. Even though I like vegging out at home, I hate not being proactive at work. Which, I think, is why I've stuck at the pub for so long - there's always something to do or someone to talk to. I can go for hours with out saying a single word here, and for a chatterbox like me its practically painful!

So, attempting to be proactive, I have written a to do list. Everything from chose a new colour for my bedroom to chose a direction for my life! I have a short list;

• Do an MA (but of course I need to decide what in)
• Do a cookery course (intermediate to advanced, possibly in Italy)
• Event management
• Voluntary work abroad (possibly in the jungle in Borneo)
• Photography
• Modelling (I know....but people have said I aught to send off my photoshoot photos)

Of course, there's always writing my book...although recent events have been more funny-tragic than funny-haha. But perhaps that's just my current state of mind. One thing is for sure though, nothing ever happens as one might expect.

And yes, that was a very equivocal last statement......

A Year On.....

Over a year has passed since my last entry, which is fairly disgraceful really. And what a year it has been. Ok, so I say that like my world has drastically changed, that I'm suddenly living in New York managing some uber funky gallery with the art world falling at my feet. Sadly not. I'm still living in the depths of the Surrey countryside, still at the same two jobs.

BUT....but things have progressed. I should be proud of myself really (I go through phases of being so....they come and go). I am still the 'Assistant Curator' at The Hannah Peschar Sculpture Garden, and that has provided me with so many opportunities. She (Hannah Peschar) really is an amazing lady - as you'd imagine an art dealer to be; slightly eccentric, ruthless and full of stories. But she's also a real sweetie (she buys us ice creams and little treats). I'm pretty much her PA as well as having gallery duties, but I do also get to have fun. Lots of my photographs and writing have been used on our website, and I have been published in a number of magazines (English Country Garden, Artists and Illustrators, Surrey Life.....) I have sold a few pieces, dealt with new (and old) artists, TV and film crews, music and TV stars....well, when I look at it all, it does seem pretty impressive for a new graduate. But.....well, it's not what I want to do with my life. I have no passion for it. Yes, I like going to galleries, and I love it when I find a new piece, but I cannot be fussed with the PRETENSION of it all. Seriously, it's just like you'd imagine.

As a side line, which started with doing the photography at the garden, and a discussion with a friend of mine, I'm trying to get into food photography. That's where my passions really lie...in food and photography, so why not combine them? Luckily enough, this friend happens to run the farmshop in his family's pub, so suggested to his mother that I could do the photos for the new websites! So, having no real idea of what was expected of me, I produced hundreds of photos of the animals on their farm, grub from the farmshop...and a few dodgy shots of the pub. It was a lot of fun to do, and having no clue at the start of the process, I feel I learnt a hell of a lot.

I'm also (again, its all about connections) the photographer for the Walliswood Village Events....such as Village Day and Carols at Christmas. So more of my photos up on the web!

It has been the most hectic year, especially the past few months...it feels like the world was tipped upside down and smushed together. I don't really know what I want to do with my life (I'm realistic enough to know that I'm not going to get anywhere with photography). I know I'm only 23 so it doesn't matter, but I would like a plan. It doesn't help that I recently spit up with the guy that at one stage I thought I'd marry.....but that's not the point.

A couple of girlie friends of mine suggested that I started writing a book, or at least a blog telling the (edited version) of the COMEDY that has been my life for the past year. I won't go into details here, but a couple of girlies used to LOVE hearing the latest updates ("Vikki....seriously you could make a romcom...its hilarious!") so maybe I'll do that.

And if someone has actually read this...please send your ideas on the back of a postcard.........